Volume 5 Chapter 209, Boasting_2

Translator: Nonon

Proofreader: Silavin

 

If you asked me whether I was interested in anything sexual, I would have to say that of course I’m interested, but not enough to openly talk about it.

That being said, I do like it enough to occasionally talk about it with Buff and Tan, who were my classmates, and I even converse with the womanizing Khaki when the occasion arises. We often talked about our ideal types or body proportions. Whenever I talked about my preferences, people would often say, ‘it’s like your tastes come from a different perspective than a male perspective’.

In other words, I think my interests are about average, and it’s not like I don’t find Lady Violet’s feminine charms attractive either. In fact, I love how charming she is. I want to make more clothes that would suit her.

 

“Is it true… that you only kisses the first time a few days ago? You weren’t keeping it a secret from Gray or anything like that?”

“… Yeah, that’s right. We finally did it.”

“… Don’t tell me, she was exactly like the rumors at first and avoided you…?”

“No, it’s true that we had a lot of issues at the beginning, but she definitely tried to approach me.”

“I see…”

 

But what’s this?  What’s with this atmosphere?

It’s really awkward.

I understand that having an heir is important in the Noble society, or rather, the society at large. It’s not like I’m hesitating about it… in fact, we almost did something similar on the first day Lady Violet arrived. In other words, even for Nobles in name only, producing an heir is a normal.

 

“Clo, in other words, you’re…”

Besides, Gen and Sumi are also close to their spouses, so I probably look strange to them.

 

“So what I saw at the Lords’ meeting wasn’t a mistake, after all! Are you getting tied up as some perverted play?!”

“What?! Just what’s being done to you?! Is that why you exclaimed ‘…damn pervert’ as you held your arm?”

““And it just made your fear of women worse?!””

“Stop right there!”

 

They misunderstood me in a strange way.

Come to think of it, I was trying to explain Lady Violet to them and ended up causing misunderstandings because I kept remembering Ms. Schwarz and Mrs. Vert.

Maybe that’s how they were looking at Lady Violet when they were talking earlier. They probably misunderstood that I was made to wait or had my arms tied up. Actually, where did this fear of women even came from? It’s all mixed up with gayness and all sorts of stuff.

 

“No, it’s not like that. Lady Violet is attractive, but I’m busy with the Lord’s work, and I’m happy spending my everyday life with her, so I’m more than satisfied with that…”

“But having an heir is important too. Besides, if you find your Wife attractive, as a man you should—”

“Biologically, both men and women have desires. I also have desires for my Husband—”

 

They started saying things like ‘have desires’ and ‘want to make a child’, things that I didn’t want to hear from my actual blood related Family.

Halfway through, or rather, the whole duration of this talk I was suspecting whether they just wanted to boast about their relationships, but in any case, they gave me so much advice as my seniors that I couldn’t intervene.

 

“You should follow your desires sometimes.”

“No, you can’t just carelessly plan to have children without thinking about the future. If you get carried away by sexual desires without thinking about the consequences, your future children will be unhappy too. That’s something that can’t be allowed to happen.”

“Ah, yeah, that’s true.”

“… You’re pretty strict about things like that, Clo.”

 

That’s how I felt raised by a Mother like that in my previous life. Although she was also motivated by money.

It’s important to be true to your desires, but there are things more valuable than that.

 

“My Lord, other Families have their own ways of doing things. It’s not good to force your thoughts on them.”

“That’s right, my Lady. Forcing common sense on people can sometimes lead to the rift in a relationship. Lord Clo’s family has its own common sense.”

 

Thankfully Mr. John-Brian and Ms. Cork stepped in to help. It seemed a little late though.

They seem like sensible people, so they should appease my siblings.

 

“There are people in this world who got more turned on by being made to wait. That’s the kind of a play this is. I like it too.”

“It’s the kind of a thing that worships women. They get excited by watching. I’m like that too.”

“Wait a moment!”

 

Dammit, they weren’t normal either.

Why do those people want to make us look abnormal? I hope this isn’t because they believed the rumors of me being Abnormal Cagliostro.

 

“Then… is Miss Violet’s appearance not your type?”

“Come to think of it, he wasn’t very receptive to girls with big chests.”

“But with Canary… is it her personality then?”

“Maybe he likes passive girls…?”

“No, um…that’s not it.”

“Desire is important. Otherwise, you might mistakenly take her presence for granted, and suddenly realize that you’ve drifted apart.”

“That’s right. If you don’t do anything, your partner will feel anxious too.”

 

However, ignoring me, Gen and the others continued discussing various reasons of what could be the problem.

I can understand where my older siblings are coming from, and I can also understand that they are worried about us.

But… yeah, I’m not going to hold back anymore.

 

“… Shut up.”

““Huh?””

 

I have my own reasons.

 

“Lady Violet is dignified and has an air of nobility that I lack. Although she was a bit naïve about the workings of the world, she tried her best to understand me, cooked for us to try to make the food taste as close to our preferences as possible, and when she waved at me like Ms. Kriemhild and blushed when I waved back, I could barely contain myself from how adorable everything she did was! I just can’t help but want to hug her! She’s so loveable, just touching her, spending time with her along with Gray, talking and laughing together fills me up with happiness! Even kissing is important for us, and being at that stage is also precious for me! I love everything about Lady Violet! Any complaints about that!?”

 

It’s no longer the time to be ashamed about keeping it a secret.

I hate having my feelings of love being denied even more. There are many reasons, including my own, but I also love Lady Violet just as much as Gen and Sumi love their spouses. In any case, I hated the idea of my current happiness being denied.

And probably because I shouted so loudly, I found myself gasping for air. As I calmed down, it settled in that I had just spoken my real feelings. But I didn’t regret anything.

I had no regrets, but just as I felt a little embarrassed to see their reactions and averted my gaze—

 

 

“Umm… well, thank you, Lord Clo. I also… love you.”

 

The door was open, and my eyes met with Lady Violet standing there.

Apricot, Ms. Mary, Silva, and Mrs. Vert were there too.

Mrs. Vert was laughing fearlessly, but I doubt it was my imagination that everybody else’s faces were red.

And it seemed like Lady Violet’s face was the reddest of them all.

…Hmm?

 

 

“I’m going for a quick run to clear my head. I might not come back for a few days, but don’t worry about me.”

 

Gen and the others stopped me as I tried to leave through the window.